Wednesday, May 09, 2007
tired tired tired.
12:18 AM
i start a day with my mother grumbling at me at around 830, cos i haven wake up and supposed to meet my fren at 1000 over at jurong east station. he skipping lessons to accompany me to sing karaoke and watch spidey, since it had been a long wait from the last visit to kbox. i reached jurong east at around 1005, but where is des? he is late la. zzzz, i thot im late liao, he still can be later then me.
that kuku jiao reached about 1030?! den we travelled to woodlands, on the way as usual, gong jiao wei, and plain jiao wei. reached woodlands at about 1100, then we went straight to the cinema to purchase tickets for spidey~ 1400 show.
sing song time~ we head straight to party world after purchasing the tickets, and sang at the package of 10 dollars triple plus cos got 2 drinks. a bit of regrets, cos the second drink, also drank a bit rush. i started singing with my favorite song, some oldies, then kenji wu's songs and i ended the session with some english oldies all time favorites. and i tried I still Believe, and i believed i died on the spot. )=
spidey spidey~ cool show, even though a bit long, but to think of it, spidey fighting 3 enemies in the show, lose a girlfriend, quite worthy.. (= was superbly happy when harry (once his enemy) help spidey to fight venom and sandman in order to save his love. super sad when he got evil and smacked mary jane. tmd~ is that the way to treat a girl?(i will never treat my girl this way.)
show end, rush back to school, realising haven eat since breakfast, bought a hotdog from orange julius and a new white color jersey due to a friendly game that i was not informed about, spent 29.90 for it, yao ming, and let andy mock for the whole session. we won the game by 1 point with a magnificent fight back from deficit, but i wasn't part of the fight back squad. at least they are fighting, and nearly broke out into a fight, i pity en ning, he got stucked in the middle.
late night dinner, over at kfc but wtf?! kfc no more chicken? the usual gang went to macs to have our dinner, an ultra full one. i really ate a lot. and is really a lot. kinda regretting it, was gossiping about someone who was once our pal and too much coincidences plus incidents made me detest him a lot. i felt disgusted knowing him as my friend.
on my way home, i msg her, just the normal kinds, our conversations are always full of questions and answers and solely on that, other then that, i seldom have her reply.. sigh~ when will i get to know her more? just like a song des had sang today, 除此之外, 我要你明白, 你的笑, 我真是喜欢看, 于是我一次又一次等待, 其实都还算愉快, 除此之外, 非常遗憾, 你的心, 我还是打不开 and if you need somebody, 我确定我会在, 除此之外, 我还在等待, 你的心将为我敞开 but if you need somebody, 你知道我会不会走开. this is exactly how i felt.
horror came. i opened my mailbox. i was waiting for the NTU letter for so long, initially was so excited about it, but when it came, my mind was still. cos i knew, it wasn't bringing me good news, suddenly felt very down and i took a deep breathe and open the envelope, true enough, my application was not successful. sigh~ appeal appeal. i guess i need my testimonial real soon to aid me in the appeal.
p/s: i really need her by my side. i do have plenty of friends, and my guys are good enough and i seek is her and her concern. when will i start to honour my promises to myself? nobody knows. it is a really long day. bearr is down.
