Twenty-One this year, currently serving the nation as of 27 july 2007. graduated from republic poly, basketball is my passion.
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one day two posts, power la... thanks to kok boon, i'm showing you guys my fling/girlfriend or everwhat you called it.
p/s: why should i go back with you? four of you once wanted me dead and one of you succeeded. ~Captain Jack Sparrow.
Story Telling
4:42 PMStory Telling (this story is based on a real life incident).
Once upon a time, there’s this guy, I shall named him Peter (name changed to protect his identity), who never truly in love with a person. He spends most of his time playing games, meeting up with friends and doing things that they liked. Within his circle of friends, he never had a chance to be in loved with someone. Not that he do not have a target, just that he got too many. (~.~'' wtf?!) He had female friends in his life of course, and none of them are the touchables, as to say, either attached or not intending to be attached but most of the case are attached. (duh~)
Whenever he meet up or encounter with a nice girl, he will secretly have feelings for her. (flowery heart, I guessed). It all happened so coincidentally. There is always three scenarios or three confusing feelings left tingling in his heart. (three different girls I think)
One, he will carrying on with his life after knowing the girl, until a certain extent that he would almost forget about her, but if they meet up once in a blue moon, he will realized that he misses her terribly.
Two, he will keep contact with the girl, exchanging conversations, till an extent that it is a routine for him, but noting ever happened.
Three, he misses that girl when they don’t contact each other, misses her even more when they meet up, try to make her happy and be understanding. What could be worse, even when they contact each other frequently, he still misses her.
These three feelings make him feel like a jerk, making it no sense and sounds as if he’s two timing, or even three to four timing. He always thought to himself, which is the true one that he will deeply fall for. That’s all up to you all to comment.
p/s: Will Turner to Elizabeth Swane: My Heart’s yours anyway, would you put it to safe for me? =)
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Complaining Night
12:35 AMI think i’m borne to be unlucky in my life..especially in my love life..buy 4-D also never tio before. Buy toto, nearly tio…dunno got more unlucky or not… I think my unlucky life starts when I start my polytechnic life… no doubt I’ve a more vibrant life but not one that can make me feel what I’ve felt.
Year 2 I guess, is the year where I fell in love with someone, who? Some of you might have know, some of you don’t… nevertheless thanks to ben, I’m not afraid to share but still don’t wished to share…haha..i was so good to her..but in the end, she chose aonther guy instead, er.. another guy that merely know her for a week…that was like? Wtf?!. Hahaha.. also must thank her la…without her, I won’t start a blog and you ppl wouldn’t read this now. That’s my first attempt in my poly life.
Since that incident, I feared or rather don’t wish to commit, until this girl came along.. haha.. my very innocent classmate. LOLX. Really she very innocent, but I didn’t follow up and no confession, CAUSE~ she actually fell in love with another guy, and really happy that she’s with him..but not now… and no one really knows. Hahaha. I’m good in disguising. That’s the second time.
Ever since, I never never did try or be touched or smitten or fall in love again… I just acted happy, play along. Smile here smile there. I had a lot of eye candies, and this made a lot of ppl unhappy I guess…eye candies, sayang and a darling. Needless to say, eye candies are fake, the truth still lies that I’ve feelings for my sayang and darling…one is attached, the others like missing in action…don’t know why..
Why? Why relationship in poly is so different in secondary school? Ahaha I missed secondary school~ first one in secondary two, her name was rachel~ the other in secondary 4, her name carol, oh carol~ I’m nothing but a fool, hahaa. Everything is so simple in secondary school. Sigh…
p/s: why do the one I fancied and put in effort, is either attached or don’t want to be attached, do let me sleep and dream till I never wake up.
Monday, May 21, 2007
work work work~
11:19 PMultra busy man, i'll tell you...so many jersey..and the saddest part is i might not be able to go training tomorrow..aiya also good la...i haven recover from my injuries..tomorrow reporting work at 1000 see if i can wake up~
p/s: tired tired tired..when can i rest? perhaps the day i die. =(
headache~
12:28 AMsupposed to work today~ but didn't go to work, cos of a terrible headache in the morning, and i slept till quite late...Guess, im thinking too much, that knock indeed has some impact on me even though i'm crowned as the wall...feeling giddy, headache and ear pain...sigh...guess i'm going to recover from it fast...
newly discovered injury, i just realised my right wrist is a bit sprained..i felt sharp pain when i rotated it..my thumb, is painful again...bad memories..hope i recover soon..
p/s: to the person out there, who i am, what directions i'm heading, i do not know...just hope that one day, you will truly understand...
Saturday, May 19, 2007
My Passion~
12:34 AMtoday started a day going out with my old friend, very long nvr go out with her le...ever since somethings happened...what things? i shall not mention. but nevertheless, i meet her in the afternoon at around 1230...went to west coast recreation centre to play pool...soooooo long never go to that place already, i emphasize, soooooooo long~ last visit is like secondary four, coming to 5 years le...Nothing changes there, just addition of new shops but still very run down..this shows that in life, human change, but memories still remains...getting poetry again.
met roy at woodlands control at 430, he didn't go school again...power la..he's sick thou and yet i reprimanded him..>.<.. my bad.made my way down to kiddy palace in causeway point to buy powder for my boy boy (bryce)...on my way out to meet roy..i saw her~!!!!.. so happy..she's heading to work but dropping by causeway point to buy stuffs...didn't say much also.. stupid me.. so lousy..exchanged a few words..then go le.regrets~!!
injured...today training not really tiring but with some crazy acts, i did push ups with my guys..so much for a graduate...LOL.. i simply cant stand ppl argue during training...please, just do as you are told...and thanks to yongjun, i cut my face.. first time face injury..it's a small cut anyway...hahah...so don't make a big fuss out of it..
so sian, first time, what happened was yongjun jumped and tip the ball, i jump on second try, trying to hit the ball away, his elbow landed on my face and i got cut by my specs.
p/s: authority isn't everything, use your magnanimous heart and actions, to make ppl respect you, not hate you..
Monday, May 14, 2007
chak~
2:20 PMto that someone out there...i'm so gonna give you a surprise...this surprise is not easy, it requires time.. so stay tuned. q=
p/s: i'm so very happy.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Glitz' 07
10:11 AMsports excellence award..the recognition of all athletes' efforts and passion in their game...a very good evening to start with seeing all the sportsmen and sportswomen in republic polytechnic... i've gotten myself a meritorious silver and rp sports for good award, was the nominee for team captain of the year. (=. So even if i never get my prestigious team captain of the year, i shall make a speech here (i know i a bit bhb).
" First of all, i want to thank my teammates for the recognition of my commitment and efforts for the team, secondly and most important i have to thank the basketball advisor, mr benjamin seow, without his faith in me, he wouldn't chose me as his captain, at times i maybe lazy and not doing things, he will not grumble but tolerate instead, it was actually him that makes me mature in the years in republic poly.
Today, this award is handled to me, does not mean that i'm the best, but it does signify the amount of efforts that i've put in the team. So i'll share something with the current batch or maybe the future batch of captains, being a leader in the team, you don't just command and idle, instead, you give directions and execute with your team. You don't steal limelight, neither you will be the best in the game, you are more passionate then the team, always put the team in front of you.
To end this speech, please press 1, oops, okay, to end this speech, i would like to thank republic polytechnic for all the opportunities given to me, otherwise i wont be on this stage. "
nightmare in the day. i've a very strong feeling that she's ignoring me. sigh~ perhaps blocked me on msn. i dunno, i've totally no idea what had happen and the sudden disappearing, maybe i'm just too annoying. alright, i guess, from today onwards i shall not "disturb" you again, i don't even dare to call you and ask. maybe i'm thinking too much, but this is getting very true. i'm afraid of losing you and this is going to be a truth for me. Dejected~
p/s: sigh~ i shall wish you the best of health and the best of the years ahead, always take great care of yourself, i understand, we are just friends, in no shoes to do so much or even care so much. so as long as you're happy, i think it is good for me le ba. i saw you today, from afar. )=
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
tired tired tired.
12:18 AMi start a day with my mother grumbling at me at around 830, cos i haven wake up and supposed to meet my fren at 1000 over at jurong east station. he skipping lessons to accompany me to sing karaoke and watch spidey, since it had been a long wait from the last visit to kbox. i reached jurong east at around 1005, but where is des? he is late la. zzzz, i thot im late liao, he still can be later then me.
that kuku jiao reached about 1030?! den we travelled to woodlands, on the way as usual, gong jiao wei, and plain jiao wei. reached woodlands at about 1100, then we went straight to the cinema to purchase tickets for spidey~ 1400 show.
sing song time~ we head straight to party world after purchasing the tickets, and sang at the package of 10 dollars triple plus cos got 2 drinks. a bit of regrets, cos the second drink, also drank a bit rush. i started singing with my favorite song, some oldies, then kenji wu's songs and i ended the session with some english oldies all time favorites. and i tried I still Believe, and i believed i died on the spot. )=
spidey spidey~ cool show, even though a bit long, but to think of it, spidey fighting 3 enemies in the show, lose a girlfriend, quite worthy.. (= was superbly happy when harry (once his enemy) help spidey to fight venom and sandman in order to save his love. super sad when he got evil and smacked mary jane. tmd~ is that the way to treat a girl?(i will never treat my girl this way.)
show end, rush back to school, realising haven eat since breakfast, bought a hotdog from orange julius and a new white color jersey due to a friendly game that i was not informed about, spent 29.90 for it, yao ming, and let andy mock for the whole session. we won the game by 1 point with a magnificent fight back from deficit, but i wasn't part of the fight back squad. at least they are fighting, and nearly broke out into a fight, i pity en ning, he got stucked in the middle.
late night dinner, over at kfc but wtf?! kfc no more chicken? the usual gang went to macs to have our dinner, an ultra full one. i really ate a lot. and is really a lot. kinda regretting it, was gossiping about someone who was once our pal and too much coincidences plus incidents made me detest him a lot. i felt disgusted knowing him as my friend.
on my way home, i msg her, just the normal kinds, our conversations are always full of questions and answers and solely on that, other then that, i seldom have her reply.. sigh~ when will i get to know her more? just like a song des had sang today, 除此之外, 我要你明白, 你的笑, 我真是喜欢看, 于是我一次又一次等待, 其实都还算愉快, 除此之外, 非常遗憾, 你的心, 我还是打不开 and if you need somebody, 我确定我会在, 除此之外, 我还在等待, 你的心将为我敞开 but if you need somebody, 你知道我会不会走开. this is exactly how i felt.
horror came. i opened my mailbox. i was waiting for the NTU letter for so long, initially was so excited about it, but when it came, my mind was still. cos i knew, it wasn't bringing me good news, suddenly felt very down and i took a deep breathe and open the envelope, true enough, my application was not successful. sigh~ appeal appeal. i guess i need my testimonial real soon to aid me in the appeal.
p/s: i really need her by my side. i do have plenty of friends, and my guys are good enough and i seek is her and her concern. when will i start to honour my promises to myself? nobody knows. it is a really long day. bearr is down.
Monday, May 07, 2007
恋上一个人
9:21 PMloving someone...will make you lose yourself...is it really a must to wait till you lose, then you treasure?.. sometimes, i tell myself, i really want to, but just cant bring myself into committing...when i treasure something/someone, i really scare to lose her...and super afraid to let her down...im so scared that i do not have time for her...
what makes things worse is, im enlisting soon, cant spent time with her as usual...and i superly cant bear to see her wasting her time on me, 2 years is not a short time...at times, im really dumb..just hope that she one day will realise it...realise what?..my concern and care for her.
at times, i saw her, she's one happy girl when she's with her friends, but at times she seems to be troubled and sad..i want to help..but i dunno where to start...i know you can take care of yourself, but at least leave me a room in your heart...
p/s: 恋上一个人, 就容易失了神~ 非要等到爱远走分两头, 才知道多舍不你走~.
Friday, May 04, 2007
finally`
11:08 AMyesh, finally i've update my blog, new template new skin, just to hope for a brand new life. (=
seriously, teach me how to get close to you..it is tough, but i will try, im acting all alone out there, fighting and defending myself from your company. just feel like singing, ~im all out of love, im so lost without you~, sadly, but true, im so lost without you. i dunno when will this last or when will this end, but without you, i've no directions.
this will be the new beginning of my blogging life since i've idle for so long, finally back in action.
p/s: im enlisting on the 27th of july, and i'll be gone for 2 years, will you wait for me?